Greetings all! It has been a while since I reach out to you, and for that I am truly sorry. The beginning of the school year and trying to mange being in a new school and my last year of elementary school (YAY) has kept me away from you for far too long! But, just because I wasn't posting, doesn't mean that I was not thinking about you. A lot of different things have happened over the last couple of months that have led me to believe that we are all different for a reason; and trying to change yourself for whatever reason is not the way to go.
We had cartoon day at my school. There are not many anime fans there, so when I should up as an anime character (not anyone in particular) no one knew what I was and told me that my costume choice was an epic fail. I felt bad about it, but then I realized that my costume was for me! No one else! So as long as I like it, everyone doesn't matter.
And then there was picture day. My mom took me to the store and a found the prettiest blue dress! Then the fight started, I wanted to wear combat books and she wanted me to wear sandals. But I won and yes I wore a dress and combat boots on picture day! I did me and it felt good!
Three weeks ago was the launch of my radio show, Eden's Perspective, and I am prompted to write this because we have talked a lot about loving yourself and being comfortable with the skin that you are in. I have the luxury now of being an 11 year old that is in the 7th grade that is housed inside of a high school. So, I am seeing the teenage perspective at work all day everyday and at times, it is not a pretty place. Kids are brutal, and everyone has something to say about everything that you do everything that you say and quite firankly, they want to criticize everything that you are. I am luck enough to have a great support system around me that makes sure that I feel healthy supported and loved at all time. Everyone is not so fortunate; and to those that aren't I say this...embrace your differences because if you don't hold those differences close to you in a warm embrace,then someone will jump all over them and the next thing you know, you feel bad. I know it may seem hard when your route doesn't appear to be the popular one, but hold on to the fact that you are not compromising who you are. But, if you feel as if you cannot get to that place of safety alone, please seek out someone that you feel can help you, mom, dad, aunt, cousin, neighbor, teacher, someone. Or, reach out to a blog, or online community that understands. But until you do that know that I think you are beautiful!!
Ta Ta for Now!
I am sorry that i have been away for so long. I recently lost my great grandmother and it has been challenging for me. But thanks to the moral support of friends and family, I am back and I am blogging. I am in a new show now, it is being sponsored by Now is the Time and A Red Orchid Theater. We are getting to write it ourselves. The theme of the show is youth violence and bullying. I am really fascinated by the stories that people are sharing. I cannot wait until we finish the script and get to bring these stories to life. It also feels good to know that I am not the only one that has experienced bullying. It is gonna be amazing! As soon as I have details, you will have details.
Ta ta for Now
Today I had a really great experience at the Bullies Stink! photo shoot. During the shoot, the girls talked about their personal brushes with bullying, and it confirmed for me that even when you feel like you are alone because you are being victimized; you are not a alone. Today, I felt like a lot of people were able to get some things off of their chest and have some courageous conversations. It felt really good to be a part of people freeing themselves from their burden. It felt good to be a part of the solution. This experience has me thinking...maybe I should start a group that meets once a month to talk about their experiences with bullying. Maybe we can help each other.
But until that happens, we got some really great pictures during the photoshoot!
Ta ta for now
I am really enjoying my new school! I don't truly fit in school life; but I dont think that I will every be able to fit in completely anywhere any so I am going to make the best of it. I am me, I am unique and I have gotten some acceptance about it. But, the one place in my school that I fit in the most in is the band. The band is like my second family, we support each other through everything. When you join the band, you have that special bond. In band you can be tall, short, old or young, skinny, or fat and we still will be there for you. These things are why I love my school, and why I encourage kids to get active in their school. Maybe you will get lucky and find that one spot that is a fit for you. Maybe you will get luck and find your place.
Ta ta for now
I am sorry I haven't posted in so long. Its been a bit hectic lately. I recently started school at a new place and its been interesting. I have had an adventure navigating my new school these last 4 days but tomorrow, I will have gotten through my first week in a high school building! Its really interesting since I am only in 7th grade to see how different the highschoolers are. My totals so far this week are.... I have gotten lost 8 times, and when I asked a highschooler for directions he flipped me the bird! But when I am in class with intelligent kids I feel as if I am in my own element and it feels nice. I will post again soon.
Ta Ta for Now!
It has been a long time since I posted. I am sorry about that. I am starting a new school next week and I am excited about that! I am sure that I will have tons to share with you when school starts. I am so excited to be posting again!
I am sorry readers, I haven't gotten to post in a while. I got kinda caught up in being on summer vacation and OUT OF SCHOOL! Okay, focus.... So you know how I told you before that I have been bullied my entire life? I didn't stop all school year, at one point the girl even threatened my life and was suspended from school. But anyway, I was so excited to get out of school and begin my summer and go to summer camp, my mom pack my lunch, bought me a new swimsuit, sprayed me down with bug spray and sunscreen and what did I find when I got there? A BULLY! I planned to use the summer as my escape from bullying, let's just say it hasn't quite worked out that way. Today is only the third day of camp so I will keep you posted. I promise so much time will not go by until I post again.
THIS IS HORRIBLE!!! Do you see why I said that bullying is dangerous. This girl was a child, just like me. This girl had feelings, just like me. This girl was being bullied, just like me. Her mother complained, just like mine. The school didn't do a whole lot, just like mine. The only difference is I am writing this blog and this girl hanged herself. To those of you being bullied, you cannot let it go this far, please remember that you are better and stronger than this and you do not have to end your life because someone else is unhappy with themselves.
Being bullied can effect our self-esteem, it can make you sad and depressed, try to live through it. I know how you feel, I have been there, I am still there; but eventually you will get your revenge. My advice would be to tell an adult that you feel comfortable with, an adult that will attempt to do something about it. If they threaten you for telling, ignore them and make sure that an adult knows what is going on. When you react to bullies, it lets them know that what they are doing is hurting you, and it makes them want to keep doing it. It makes them happy. Don't make them happy, they are not making you happy!